A quick pre-bedtime post

Kristen, my best friend since freshman year, got me to writing here. I know nothing about Blogger, so I don't know what else to do to help.

I don't have long to write tonight, as I have to be up for work at three am. But I wanted to write to my bestie, let her know that I understand what she is going through.

There are different levels of being okay, and while on the surface level you will forever appear 'okay,' or 'fine,' there are other parts of you that are hurting and mourning the loss of the person who you once were in love with, then loved, then grew tired of.

I know you well, buddy, and I know when to not push you, even if I know you are not telling the whole truth about your emotions.

If you haven't yet gone out for ice cream and pizza to comfort yourself, I say you should get Ben and Jerry's. And a green pepper pizza from dominos. I wish I was there to help you out, 'cause I know you probably need a hug and some taco bell time.

It's way past my bedtime for the night, but I will catch up to you tomorrow, buddy. Hope you feel better. <3

Btw, been meaning to show you this picture for forever!

Hi there

Well then, not sure how to start this. Caitie and I talked about it some, but she suggested that I just type away and see how it goes. So that is what I'm going to do.

I decided I wanted to do a blog with a friend, and who is better then your best friend? So I asked Caitie during one of our hour-ish long phone conversations what she thought about writing a blog with me, and she said sure why not! So here we are.

We thought up the name together but so far I have done everything else. Going to push her into doing some more work here, but we'll have to see what she's willing to do.

My boyfriend of 3 years and I broke up today... I think anyway. I told Caitie about this already and she seems like she's not sure how she should feel for me since I don't know how I should feel about it all yet. I mean... I've wanted it to be over for a while now, I really have. But it being official now I don't know what to think. I wish I had someone to spend some time with. I wish I had some ice cream and pizza to pig out on right now... I'm thinking I might just go out and get some. Might make me feel better after all. But I've been trying to lose weight and I've been successful. I've lost about 7lbs in the past few weeks and I'm proud of myself for that. Going and getting pizza and ice cream will mess that up... but how else am I suppose to get over a break up?

I'm sure Caitie thinks I'm fine, and when it comes to our standards of being fine/ok, I am. I mean it's not like I feel like hurting myself physically or feel so depressed I can't get out of bed. I do feel like binging though and I don't think I'll get over it until I do. So I think I'm going to be heading out at 6PM on a Sunday night to get myself a pizza and some ice cream. But what ice cream should I get is the main question on my mind right about now.

*bites and kisses*
~Kristen